I'm a big big girl in a big big world..
haha..yeah, I'm back from that big bad old hostel! nah, just kidding. It's not that bad really once I get over all the homesickness and stuff. [What am I talking about??? Taking a shower there stinks! No place like home! >p] So! I was there since last Monday. I spent my first night there and boy, was I homesick! Pretty sad, huh? Tuesday was the first day of my orientation. That's when they taught us freshies the 'welcome clap' reserved specially for the entrance of the board members of our college. Kinda sent me reeling back into primary school days..lol. Oh, and on this first day, I was silly enough to leave a vital document in my hostel room and so had to walk all 10 minutes back to get it. >_<
Well, once orientation was done it was back to the hostel for me. Not the best place to hang out alone cause after a while, even someone like me starts getting a leetle claustrophobic. Basically, it kinda felt like jail. :p I brought one story book which I must've picked up and put down a dozen times [and more!] because, much as I love reading and much as I like that book, how long can I take to read it ?[not to mention re-read!] So that's the most boring, sickening day of this week, I guess. haha..first time away from home with no friends, no computer and no television [which I had become *so* dependant on during my "break"]
Had a free day on Wednesday. Decided to go along with a friend to get all our student IDs and whatsoever stuff done. But first, I had to go get some passport sized photos. My poor friend was dragged all the way down to the nearest shops with me.. ^^' In the end, we managed to get back to the college by about 10am and get it all done by 12 noon. By then, she left to go watch a movie with her boyfriend so I was bored. Again. Lol. Oh yeah, thanks to everyone who messaged me on this day! It was very encouraging! ^_^ Yeah, Chelle, I did go on to KLCC in the end. I love the people who put Kinokuniya there! ^.^ They were my saving grace..lol! And I now confirm that I love trains more than buses eventhough the bus driver was nice enough to send me back to the college though I was on the wrong bus, I think..heh.. ^^" Anyway, I hope I'll be a little better with bus numbers and stuff but, knowing me, it'll take a few more trips and a few more times of getting lost.. -_-'
What do you know! 'Lepak therapy' really works for a loiter-addict like me. It actually cured my homesickness [somewhat] and I felt much better by Thursday. ^_^ Thursday was also a free day for me so I acted as a "tour-guide" for two of my friends, who are from out of town, on a trip to Jaya Jusco! [me, tour-guiding..hahahahaha..] This time, we tried out the college bus and wasted half and hour waiting for it. Sigh. Nothing much to say, except they got the mini-boiler they wanted.. >D
And..Friday, I'm in love! lol..not really..but I'm home! ^_____^ I missed everything so much and the thought of Saturday classes and the ammount of time I'm going to be away makes me miss it more.. T_T But since I'm home now, I shall make the most of it. When I'm there, I'll try to rely on Cyber-cafe's to provide me with the much-needed internet but til then, I may enjoy.. :D Ja! All the best, guys!

a moment to untie the mask
I should be tired. But I'm not. Last Friday, my mom recieved a call from one of my aunts with the news that my grand-uncle had passed away. I was playing the piano till the call came. And all I remember feeling is like I did the last time. Detachment. I don't believe it. This life is not my own.
Reality hit me that night when we went to his home and the first sight that greeted me was the scene of a chinese memorial service. The sound of Taoist ritual music. Then there were all these relatives I'd hardly seen all these years. I just found it sad that it takes a funeral to bring everyone together.
To say that I wasn't and am not sad about this would be a lie. Yet, my lack of tears shed made me question my self.

I don't think I'll continue. But don't worry, guys, life is still normal on this end.

-Forgetting isn't removing a memory, it's just what we don't think about or dwell upon- just a thought.

udpdate!
Since I haven't updated in such a very long time, let me describe a wonderfully unplanned Monday from my fascinating life! Let's see, the morning was spent on finishing up chores previously abandoned during the weekend. At about 2pm, my dad 'invited' me for a nice drive up to KL to pick up my aunt from Singapore. Hmm..ok, sounds good, pick her up, get back home and delve right back into the wonderful bliss that doing nothing brings. Everything went as planned, we picked up my aunt in a mere 30 minutes or less and then after a bit of small talk in the car, they decided that it would be more convenient to drive straight to the hospital so my aunt could visit my grand-uncle [who is suffering from colon-cancer, those who have the time are welcome to pray for him, thanks.] and at the same time meet my other aunt there so she can pass her some letters. Still not too bad. I mean, I don't mind visiting my grand-uncle.. so time spent there is alright. We wait, and wait a little more and my other aunt shows up! So, we linger there awhile more and try to help out a little [entertain my grand-uncle and help him get stuff he needs] after all, the hospital environment is depressing. All you see is plain colours around you, nothing seems remotely familiar or comforting [made me wish I could re-paint the walls or something. Maybe stick glow-in-the-dark stickers on the ceiling.. heh] By the time they decide to leave, it's about 5pm, I've as good as missed my Thai series anyway so, oh well. Then my aunt from Singapore mentions she's hungry and the other aunt asks if we want to go visit her place. Ok, another little reroute, we go pick up my grand-aunty and go for erm...tea? Yeah, I ate but I got the feeling afterwards that I shouldn't have..lol. But I liked the iced tea from that place. They put condensed milk in it, something I haven't tasted in a while.. ^^ Oops! It starts to rain and we didn't bring any umbrellas with us. Now we wait and the adults start talking about taxpaying. I was listening but it just makes me think I do NOT want to think about it til I have to.. @_@
The rain finally stops and we drop off my aunt and grand-aunty before heading off to find our way home. So confidently we went! Alas, roads are more confusing than we think and so we spend the better part of our time figuring out which way to turn to get home. This time, I've missed my 6 o' clock TVB series and part of my 7 o' clock one as well. Oh look, the tank is low..let's stop by a petrol station. Don't worry, we're relatively near home now. And so I arrive home close to 7pm. Boy, am I tired...

Oh yeah, on the brighter side, I got an mp3 player! ^_^v